I miss keet yeng, yurong, cherlia, elina, tianrou, pearlyn and many more..basically my cedar khakis. Even though i rarely see them, i know and trust my hearts that they will always be there for me.

Cedar friends, and Church friends(my parish and other parishes), and others are the category of friends i have in my life till now. The categories are all very different, unique in their way.

Church friends are good, cause even though some are just few months relationship, with God around the relationships never fails to grow and grow!!

Cedar friends, i dunno, but they are i guess my trusted friends too. Like friends that somehow have the same interests as me, same character as me. Like a comfortable social circle, a place that i will go to, which ranks the same as church friends.. only that church friends has the God element which the cedar category do not have. But still, its cool okie!!

Others, some people i met in my life, basically just hi and by friends.

haha..i've been in a lower profile after i came back from pattaya.and when i came back i totally back off from my social circle of friends, maybe only talking to my pattaya friends clare and carmen and no one else..I dunno, but i feel that i needed this time to really grow deeper with God, to prepare myself for the upcoming year, a year which i really have doubts with, a year which i know that will be filled with challenges, tremor, toils, hardship. A year which will really stretch me physically, mentally and also spiritually..

haha..was just thinking!! and this is what was in my mind!!

haha. dunno. who knows maybe my calling in ten years time is to live in a monastary, to become a nun, having a life committed to jesus.

haha. but if i really get married.. and if i have a twin.. clare and carmen have already booked the place of becoming the Godmothers of my twin. Clare is so funny, she comes and send me a random sms saying.."Marion, i you have a child next time, I WANT TO BE the GODMOTHER!!"

I dunno whats life for me next time, but for now, i'll just want to have a life that involves God in it, to concentrate on my studies, and to have time for my friends also. And if possible, I REALLY WANT TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY SOCCER!!

I dunno, but i cant believe that i'm a year to eighteen, yurong cant believe it, i think cherlia also cant believe it. Elina and tianrou and maybe keet will know and believe that they are seventeen this year. haha.

As the days goes by, i realised that i cant wear jeans out so often now, cause even though i want to act as though i'm sec3, i cant, cause people knows that i'm seventeen. Even though i think jeans and tshirts are my best attire, i cant, cause i seemed to have more formal occasions to attend too, or you can say that my social circle has expanded, and i seemed to know more people who dress better.

haha. But you know what, even though the things around me may be changing, Marion will always be marion deep down in her hearts. the one which loves the outdoors, the one who loves cedar guides, the one who wants to play soccer, the one who really can go siao, the one who loves cedar..

The only thing that has changed in her life is that, she is more into religious stuff now, cause the God-changing experience is just simply amazing. With God in my life, i guess i feel better, and i guess i've became a slightly better person..

I dunno what lies ahead of me, but i know that i'm gonna make that effort to keep in touch with my cedar friends, my pattaya friends, and my other church friends. And also, to help lead and grow the Legion Of Mary.

haha..i mean i really dunno, but i'm positive!!

merry christmas to all!!
HAPPY BOXING DAY TOO!!